//i have another blog where i write more random, stream of consciousness style writing. i just posted something on there and there is an excerpt from it that i'd like to share here with you. i'm fully aware of how reddit this whole thing sounds but i had to get these thoughts off my chest. for some reason they were weighing on me. and while upon profreading, it did make me cringe at a few points, i think there is a lot of good advice in here for more lonely men
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anyway. i've been thinking a lot for the past couple of days about the nature of modern men and women. i've pretty much come to the conclusion that men of this generation should essentially avoid all women as a whole when it comes to dating. we should give up on dating them. women have entirely too much power and we let them have it, foolishly thinking they were capable of wielding it, and we were horribly wrong in our assumption. had this decision been given to me, i would have made the correct choice by not allowing women to vote or work in any position of authority, but unfortunately no one ever called me up and asked my opinion, because i would've steered them in the right direction. so now we live in a country where we have women police officers pointing a gun at you for a parking ticket, we have women in positions of congress making decisions based off of pure emotion, and we have women voters who are casting their votes based solely off of which candidate will allow her to kill her children more easily and cheaply. i could write a book on the cascading negative effects of this sudden power imbalance, and many people have. i think i'll make a post going more in depth on my main blog.
the reason i say to stay away from women is because they will drain you in every way possible (except the good way) and you will receive absolutely nothing in return. you will sink all this emotional, physical, and mental energy into this demonic never ending vitality black hole. it's like as a young man, you build this life for yourself, and you think "huh, this is pretty cool, i'm having fun, i'm not a trillionaire but i have everything i need and i'm okay and i'm happy." then you meet a woman who you love. and she judges everything you do, nothing is ever good enough. she won't have shit to her name. you will have all this stuff, you take her out to dinners that cost her entire weeks paycheck, you spend it on one meal for her, and she will expect you to do it the next day, and if you don't, she's gone. you shouldn't have to keep up with this broke bitch. never chase these broke whores. if you have a woman who sticks by you no matter what, then fine, God bless. but for most men that is not the case and with most women they won't do that for any man anymore. they've all had 900 dicks in them by the time they're 25 at this point, so none of them know anything about loyalty whatsoever. their ability to pair-bond is completely shot.
you know, it's a really funny thing about women. you could be with a girl for 5 years, you teach her all sorts of things on a huge array of topics, she teaches you nothing, and at the end of the 5 years she will still think that she is just as smart as you. they are 100% delusional.
you ever see these women who get all tough and say shit like "i'm gonna kick his ass!" or "i wish a guy would try that with me, i'd rip his nuts off!" whenever i hear women talk like this i just hope someone starts physically abusing them. like shut up bitch, you have no idea how weak you are.
that's the thing with modern women is that they have been psyoped (extremely easy to do to women, like taking candy from a baby) to believe that to be the best version of themselves, they have to be like their ideal husband. what these idiots don't understand is that in doing this, they remove all the aspects of themselves that make women likable, such as femininity, softness, kindness, helpfulness, and being someone who takes care of family. now women complain about how often they're objectified for sex, which is completely retarded because they do it to themselves, but when you strip away all of the nonphysical aspects of a women, and make her act like a man and do man things, then the physical is all that is left. no one is attracted to a woman's personality anymore, because they're all awful. then, these women with -10/10 personalities, do nothing but post pictures of their semi-naked bodies bent over on the internet for the entire world to see, and then they say "can you believe this creep liked my picture from 8 months ago?" very few things in the world are as frustrating to me as when a woman starts sharing her opinions on things. they are always so misguided that you have no idea how the fuck they even got there.
so in case you couldn't tell, i'm single right now. not that i would have wrote anything different while i was in past relationships, but i'm not in one now. however, this cat that's hanging out with me right now has been a 1,000x better companion than any american woman could ever be. this cat loves me to death for 2 cans of cat food a day. she meows for me when i'm in another room, she lies on my chest when i'm on my computer, like right now. she shows me so much affection and makes me smile constantly. she will never text me and ruin my day. she will never leave me for another owner because i said something that she "just couldn't deal with." i love this fuckin' thing man. if you don't have one, i highly recommend you go get one, and if you don't have a girlfriend, good. you're better off.
it's pretty funny but i've noticed that i was the biggest simp back when i was a virgin. back when i was 15, before i had any sex, i was the gayest, pussiest, doormat, simp, faggot the world has ever seen. i absolutely praised women and because of this they wanted absolutely nothing to do with me. however, there is a very small portion of women who love this pussy-worship sort of thing, and so i still had minor success with women at the time. the more women i got with, the more i started to learn about women in general, the more i learned the differences between modern and traditional women, and the more i became to detest what is the modern woman. so be wary, you sluts on the internet calling all the misogynist men "incel," it's actually the incels who are simping for you online and being completely nice and agreeable to you no matter what you say. the misogynists online being mean to you, they're usually far from incel. they're usually the guy who took home your slut friend from the bar last weekend. these women spread their legs for free for a stranger after a night out and then have the audacity to look down on prostitutes. the prostitutes are at least getting paid and they don't have to lie to themselves about who they really are.
if you've never been in a relationship before, i can't stress this to you enough - the pussy is NOT worth it. i promise you, if you're alone and single right now, you are happy, or at least happier than you would be if you had a nagging bitch near you who sucks up every valuable force you have in this world. your energy, ambition, free time, freedom, money, emotional well-being and peace of mind will mysteriously vanish if you link up with one of these modern women. it's bad for your health. jacking off (while i don't condone it) is 1000% better. it's free, you can do it whenever you want, you don't have to ask a woman to do it for you like you're some abused homeless guy in scraggly clothes asking for one of your saltine crackers. don't get me wrong, sex feels great and there's a reason there is so much talk about it amongst people, but all that glitters isn't gold. and i mean that truly. the grass is always greener, right? you might be lonely, this is good. you should learn to enjoy being lonely. i learned to enjoy it about a year ago and it was one of the best things i've ever done. if you still feel lonely, buy a cat, you'll be fine.
i'm sure you've had plenty of experiences in your life where you didn't take someone's advice and you seriously regretted it. i'm promising you that this will be one of those times. if you couldn't tell by now, i'm speaking from experience. but let me tell you, the first and last time i let myself fall deeply in love with a woman, my gut told me the entire time not to do it, and that it wasn't a good idea, but i actually ignored my own advice, and i can't even tell you how much i regret it. that's why sex is so dangerous, you may act in ways you never thought you would over the right woman, and if you've had sex with her already you'll do even more for her if you're a simp by nature. the thing about sex is, when you're a virgin you think to yourself, "if i could just have sex one time, i'll be happy enough. i'll get it out of my system." but this is not what happens. what actually happens is that you get it into your system, and all of a sudden you are obsessed with it. it will consume your mind and time alike. if you're anything like me, you could not only become obsessed with quantity of women, but you could also become especially infatuated with a woman if you let yourself get there. this is probably the worst position you could be in as a man. i'd rather be fucking homeless than be in a position where a woman has power over me ever again. never fall for the lie that women constantly spout that you should open up and become vulnerable with the woman you love. they tell you this so they can gain control over you. you might read that last sentence and think, "this guy's crazy there's no way women would do that to gain control of you." okay then go ahead and try it. see what happens. i'm not writing this shit out for my health, it's because i've lived through this bullshit, and i really prefer that i hadn't. i'd be a lot richer, happier, healthier, more intelligent, more well travelled, and i'd be in a 100x better position overall had i followed my gut. so do yourself a favor and stay away from pussy. if you find a woman that is wholesome, a virgin, and is willing to wait until marriage to have sex with you, then by all means go ahead. otherwise, just jack off. live your life on your own terms, without some demonic bitch that only cares about herself dragging you down. if this woman you're thinking about was so great, some rich guy would have already snatched her up to marry her. there are not very many reasonable women who are attractive left, and if you add the virgin filter, the number drops to near zero.
men have enough bullshit to deal with in the modern day. don't add to your list. focus on yourself and build yourself.
the heroin salesman
Christ is King
2025-04-05
2025-03-30
write out your entire life
//an interesting thing i began doing the other day was something i always thought i should do. as someone with what i consider to be subpar long-term memory, i began writing out my entire life in a google doc, from birth until today. not in story format, but rather a list. im listing every single event of any significance, obviously in chronological order. i recommend everyone tries this. i have been remembering things that have happened to me for the first time since they've happened, it's been kind of surreal. and like with anyone else, there are many moments in my life that i prefer to not think about, and so i haven't thought about them too much. now that a whole lot of time has passed since then, and i don't care about anything for the most part, it's been quite the treat to go down memory lane. i've been working on it for about 4 days now, and i feel like there's so much more to discover, it's like i've been flipping through the pages of a book that is my life.
what's also cool about it, is you can scroll through it, and as you add more and more details, your life starts to look like a well written story. it starts to come together like a puzzle, the more you add the more of the full image you see. i've always had problems remembering if certain events happened before or after each other, and now things are a lot clearer to me. i started by numbering the most important things that happened to me in my life, and then in between, adding in all of the smaller things that happened as a result, and the even smaller things that branched out as a result of those.
in the beginning it was bare, but i've been adding to it for about 4 days now and i really think im getting close to my full life in bullet points. it's about 10 pages right now. obviously, you could add a million details about every single thing, but that was not the point of this. the point is to end up with a linear timeline of your entire life, strengthen your long-term memory, and help you understand how your life has unfolded in the way that it has.
it's no secret to anyone that i have great deal of mental issues. sometimes i act in ways that i would never even think of, in those moments i don't believe 'i' am in control. when you lose control, who does it go to? were our ancestors so crazy to think that mental illness was demonic possession? i wouldn't be surprised to find out if most patients at the time agreed with the sentiment. anyway, if you've ever felt like your life has been, or is out of control, this is a good way to dig deeper. i assume this is the 'feeling' you're supposed to get from talk therapy, but that stuff is for women. what i'm talking about here, this is for men. this is about reflection and contemplation. let me be very clear about this. the purpose of this is not to work out your emotions or traumas or whatever gay shit you feel, the purpose is simply to be able to document and assemble a timeline. with this timeline you could come back to in the future at any time and add to it. you could add events as they happen and also add events as you remember them.
this was something i've thought about doing for the last 2 years but have procrastinated terribly. i would post it on this site as an example so you guys can see for yourself, but there's way too much identifying information included, and i'd like to remain a bit anonymous. i could change or blur some things in the upload but that defeats the purpose, it is essential that you are 110% honest when writing this. you cannot avoid embarrassing moments, or painful memories. everything that is in your memory must be included in this or you are cheating yourself and you might as well not do it at all. in fact, the memories that you'd prefer to not include may be the most important ones to add. these difficult events have molded you, and as you add them to your list, you'll notice that maybe you started to act a little differently after them or maybe you made different decisions. these are the types of events that will give you the most insight into yourself. while your first kiss may have been a defining moment or a fond memory for you, for most people their first kiss will have very little effect on their life, i personally forgot to add mine and just went and added it now. these memories are pleasant and should be added but these are not the memories in which you will be deriving the most meaning from. so, add your worst memories, maybe even add them first. write out your list in whatever order you want but remember that if you plan on being ≤99% honest, then don't do it at all because there is no point. i'm sure you've heard 'the truth will set you free' at least once or twice in your life. things like this are what that is referring to. once your list gets nice and full, you'll start to have answers on why you act the way you act written in plain english. good luck and God bless.
2025-03-16
2025 - the beginning of the precrime dystopia
//if you have been paying close attention to the news as of late, you would have heard about a study done recently by a group called "n.c.r.i." which stands for "network contagion research institute" and some other 'academics,' famous israel shill, jordan peterson being one of them. the institute says that they are a "neutral and independent organization whose mission is to identify and forecast cyber social threats and report on them in a timely fashion." they intentionally try to sound innocuous, but they are essentially a sub-sect of the anti-defamation league. they claim to be "neutral," but they're very obviously geared toward jewish interests. the group has developed a type of software that uses a.i. to scan the internet and generates reports on social media users based on parameters set by the researcher. this is tool will be used to determine the 'math' on public sentiment. by quantifying what people are saying, you can literally map out what the population is thinking in a way that was previously impossible.
the study they published this last week used this powerful a.i. model to scan billions of posts across the internet, using an algorithm to designed to detect subtleties and underlying meaning in the language, some people call these 'dog whistles,' such as when people say online that they are "noticing" with very little other context, the untrained eye may see this post and not understand what they are talking about, but the more internet savvy person will understand that the person is talking about jewish influence and jewish control. this would not be apparent at first glance, this knowledge comes with time. another example is the '109' dog whistle, which refers to the number of modern day countries that jews have been expelled from throughout history. you see, the whole reason people came up with these dog whistles in the first place is because jews have been the one group that you have never been able to criticize no matter what. you were not allowed to criticize black people for a short while, but i think that has come back in full swing. but still to this day, if you talk about the jews online, 99% of websites will ban you without giving you a reason. so over time, people had to get smart with how they spoke on this topic on websites that don't allow free speech. when the jewish powers that be began to catch on to what was happening, they coined the term 'dog whistle,' a message that only some people can hear.
to combat these people exercising their free speech, jewish groups have been developing this a.i. model that can scour the entire internet and find all the supposed anti-semites in one swoop. the way the algorithm they designed works, is by seeing which words and phrases are most paired with others. the main example of this being the title of their paper, "thy name in vain: how online extremists hijacked 'Christ is King.'" in their paper, they claim the word that is second-most posted by people who post "Christ is King," is the word "jew." they also say that the most popular posts containing the phrase for the last few years, were all posted by famous antisemites and whom they consider to be "bad," untrustworthy, or immoral. the crux of their argument is that antisemites have taken the phrase "Christ is king," and turned it into somewhat of a slur used to bully and taunt jewish people.
certainly there are tons of ways people are supposedly antisemitic on the internet, so what is the big deal with this certain phrase? well, if you know anything about jewish people and their history, you'd know that they really hate Christianity, Catholicism especially, on top of their hatred of europeans. jews have been pushed around, exiled, forcefully converted, and damn near enslaved in Christian nations since their inception. because these nations were founded on Christianity, it makes sense that they would mistreat this group of people who deny Christ is the messiah. modern jews will claim that the Vatican has tons of stolen jewish libraries, artifacts, and art. which is true, but tough luck. they should've fought harder. so every time a jew hears the phrase, "Christ is King," you are bringing up this 2,000 year history of jews getting tossed around by Christians, the true holders of God's kingdom. and like any other demon, when they hear Christ's name, they cower in fear and gnash their teeth in agony. "Christ is king" is the nature of Christianity distilled into one phrase. by calling the phrase antisemitic, they are effectively lowering the rate in which the phrase is said, because some people really fear being called racist or prejudice. they will shun recital of this phrase as hard as they possibly can. the point being, if they were able to have you killed for saying it, they would, but they can't because even the dumbest people in the world would notice something like that, so they have to remain covert. just like they can't outright ban people's social media accounts for naming the jew, because people would notice and it became too obvious, so they came up with shadow-banning people to stop their posts from reaching a lot of people while maintaining the illusion that their website still has some semblance of free speech.
of course it's awful that there are jewish companies that are funded by the u.s. government designed to spy on you, but that's not the issue here. the issue is the precedent this is setting. before we know it, the police will be knocking on you door, not just for writing something that they don't like online, which is already happening in the u.k., but they might come for you if they think you may do something bad in the future, based on things you write, opinions you hold, or websites you visit. since the n.c.r.i. is a nonprofit, they don't have to follow any constitutional guidelines that a government organization would normally have to while spying on you. usually to be spied on by the government at this level, the agency or agencies that were trying to do so would need to obtain a warrant by proving probable cause to a judge. but since this is a nonprofit that is funded by the government, they can easily bypass constitutional protections. government intelligence agencies like the c.i.a. and f.b.i. will then send contracts out to these nonprofits and obtain information on citizens without ever having to speak to a judge. so this creates the perfect trifecta for controlling public sentiment, you have research groups, intelligence agencies, and last but not least - law enforcement. this trifecta will be used in the future to suppress, and entrap people. they will also be analyzing the posts of people they consider to be 'extremists' and cross reference those posts with everyone else, and if the a.i. model detects that you may have similar opinions and temperament to their so called extremist, on the government watch-list you go. this is what governments have called "precrime," which is the ability to detect if someone will commit a crime in the future. in this case the crime being, revolting against whatever tyranny is being brought upon us.
if this sounds really complex for no reason, they do that on purpose too. just like they always make the names of their organizations very vanilla and unsuspecting, it's suppose to go over the head of the layman. they do things in a very convoluted way to make it difficult to explain and understand. in their mission statements they use the most dry and vague institutional language that is meant to sound like jargon so that most people don't think anything of it and don't look any further. but rest assured this is one of the most sinister things on america's horizon, which is really saying a lot. getting arrested for a youtube comment sounds like something america would never stoop too, but i'd never be so sure. it was not too long ago they were toying with the idea of imprisoning people for not getting an experimental vaccine, because getting them fired from their jobs wasn't enough punishment for them apparently. to say that the united states government has any sort of morals or concern for your well-being is the dumbest idea ever. they poison us everyday through our food, through pharmaceuticals, they've been slowly killing us. at this point, it only makes sense that anyone who has been resistant to all of the psyops perpetrated by them would have to be dealt with. the disagreeable, non-docile, intelligent, and resilient members of the population have to be controlled in some way, because of course they don't want any sort of uprising to occur. they see that "Christ is King" for the first time in a long while is trending upward instead of downward, and they are absolutely terrified. every time it is posted on twitter, a jew is reminded of his lost place in the Kingdom of Heaven, he is reminded of europeans burning his ancestor's talmuds, he is reminded that he is jewish. the last thing they want is having a nation of american's chanting "Christ is King."
so, seeing this trend of Christianity making a comeback, they have to spring into action. while i was looking for the study this company had done, i saw some articles from last year and the year before where ben shapiro and the daily wire had been talking about this phrase being used in an antisemitic way, but until this past week, no formal papers had been written on the subject, it had all been speculation. now that this organization has essentially proved that this phrase is beloved by antisemites, myself included, so now their objective is to figure out how they can get it banned by any means necessary, and jews know their law books way better than they know how to be decent people, so trust me they will figure it out. i'm sure we will be hearing in the news about antisemites getting arrested and doing jail time within the next few years if things don't make a change - mark my words. the algorithm will be used to both ban accounts speaking about israel and jews in general, the people identified will be subject to entrapment, account suspensions, or worse.
this is one of the main reasons i started my own websites and i use this one to write. the censorship of mainstream websites sickens me to my core. using them fills me with a rage that is indescribable and new to the human psyche. never before did humans have to deal with the infuriating antics of people they couldn't see, or be instantaneously banned from social settings without warning by an invisible moderator in which you are incapable of contacting. it's disgusting, it's communistic, it's cowardly, it's something only a kike could come up with. so here on my website, i write whatever i want and no one can delete a thing i write except me, and it only costs about $12 a year. so if one day you see that this site is gone, just know that initiatives like this was the reason why. the sovereignty of america and it's people are under attack, and all most citizens want to do about it is scroll tik tok. i can't even describe to you how frustrating it is when you tell people about stuff like this, and their response is "why should i care?" it makes me want to blow their fucking head off, because how useless could you be. the american revolution happened 250 years ago over a 1% tax on tea, and it produced the wealthiest nation the world ever saw, nothing but abundance. it was possible because people back then saw tyranny on the horizon so they acted. right now, tyranny is already here, on the horizon is slavery, and getting someone to even care about it is like pulling teeth - i feel like i'm losing my mind sometimes. if you're still reading, that means you're not one of those people, and let me tell you, when the time comes, we will certainly have to leave those people behind. they are dead weight, they complicate things and make it more difficult to secure positive change. instead of thanking someone else for caring about their sovereignty for them, they look at you like your some crazy person for caring, makes me absolutely sick. they might as well be on the side of evil, even though they aren't active participants, they make it that much more difficult to deal with our enemy, and i'm sure the jew counts on them to act as this buffer between them and us. by making "bigots" the biggest social pariah, they cover quite a lot of ground. to stop someone from spreading their ideas, they simply mark them as a racist, and then 'normies' wouldn't touch their ideas with a 10-foot pole, in fear of receiving the same label.
we are looking at a very dark future for america. it's actually quite scary. if we had a population of people that were more similar to the americans of 1776, it wouldn't be so scary. the thing is, i'm not sure if the modern american is ready to stand up for anything at all. this became very clear to me during the pandemic, americans with a fighting spirit are the minority these days. they are docile cowards. "take my freedoms, take my blood, sweat, tears, take my money, take my speech, my thoughts, my life, my future, i won't do anything about it. i might even vote for it. just don't take my porn, abortions, and iphone, you can have my soul for free." it really is shameful and pathetic if you think about it. after kennedy's assassination, the boomers gave our country over to israel, the millennials followed suit, and now that the effects of this mistake are becoming apparent, gen-x has decided that they don't care enough about anything to make a stand. the zoomer population seems to be much different though, so maybe it isn't time to black-pill just yet, but either way our future is going to involve a lot of pain whether it's done to us as an act of tyranny, or it could be conflicted upon us by rushing into battle. the powers that be would never give up control without a fight, remember that we will never vote our way to living in a normal society, something has to be done.
and with that being said, i'd like to welcome myself to the watch-list the n.c.r.i. has put me on for posting this, and i'd like to say hello to all the fellow members of said list, it's going to be fun!